One of the reasons why I came on this trip was to visit my mother. She is almost 80 and has been in poor health for a number of years. However her physical and mental health has been deteriorating and on this trip I have found her the worst I have seen her. Seeing ones mother go into decline is such a sad thing. Your once healthy and vibrant mother, the person who taught you all that you know, cuddled you when you were sick, scolded you when you were naughty, baked your favourite cakes and took you on special outings is no longer able to do the most basic of things. I sat with my mum and just wanted to wrap my arms around her and tell her it was all ok, but she doesn't think it is all ok, she is frightened and anxious and no longer has any control of what is happening around her. Instead of being mother and daughter, it is now the other way around. She sits in her chair so forlorn it breaks my heart as if it was my own child. Dad and I have been trying to encourage her to be positive and smile, but for her, everything looks so glum.
We will all find ourself in this position at some point, but nothing quite prepares us for it. We all want to remain independent and not need to rely on others, but most of us will need some help in our twilight years whether we want it or not.
We pray that changes to medication will make some differences and she bounces back, but we leave this all in the Lords hands as He know what He is doing.
I suppose watching ones parent decline in health is a very good reminded to make the most of our current lives, not wasting it away. We only have so long on this earth and therefore we need to use every minute - wisely if possible.
The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; My God, my strength, in whom I will trust; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. Psalm 18:2