Anxiety and trust
|"A winters view from a window" Photography by Joluise|
Anxiety does not empty tomorrow of its sorrows, but only empties today of its strength.
I sought the LORD, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears.
One of the hardest things is trusting the Lord. I was having this conversation with my mother (who is now 80) - she is struggling with this very thing - anxiety is taking over and she finds it hard to just TRUST. Why do we as humans find it so hard to do this - I think it is because we don't like loosing control and that is what trust means - loosing control and handing that control over to the Lord. And to make it more difficult, He does things we don't understand and that makes it even harder to trust. But we must, as Jerry Bridges says in his book "Trusting God", "We must learn to trust God when He doesn't tell us why (he does certain things), when we don't understand what He is doing".
My husband has been without a job since December 2011, this most certainly has been a lesson in trust. 99.9% of the time I am fine, I completely trust the Lord in what He is doing. However every so often (that .1%) I feel a little panic of "what if" then I reminded myself that there is nothing to be worried about and so far the Lord has not let us down. I remember when my husband told me that he would be taking a voluntary redundancy and I said "don't worry, everything will be fine" and I believed it as I knew the Lord would make everything fine. Perhaps not how I would do things, but in His way . . . which is always right . . . God never makes mistakes. And we should never question his way or ask for a justification or an explanation. But just trust. And that is what I plan to do this week, every day and every moment . . . there really isn't any other choice is there? Because worry, anxiety and fear won't achieve anything.